I am seeing the need for some reevaluation… and some confessions.

Last night, I ate about 4.5 servings of this:

Yes. It’s a Korean spicy-octopus-over-rice dish, and it was so yummy that I couldn’t help but get seconds and thirds… and then off the whole pan. This was around 9:30 p.m…. after I already ate my Greed chicken salad dinner with Michael.

Looking at the past couple of days, I have been doing a lot of heavy dinners or evening eating a second dinner late at night. Sunday was the jjajang myun in Oakland, and Saturday was the bottomless steak fries at Red Robin.

I was not really hungry when I ate all of these meals, but I got into that mindset that said, “Hey, you’re eating this late at night… you already blew it… might as well just get stuffed.”

The next morning, I wake up bloated, feeling heavy, and kind of super sad. Then I end up wanting to do a super sweaty or long workout just to make up for the indulging from the night before…

… This is how my exercise starts to become punishment, and I do NOT want it do be that way! I workout to feel great and for the kick of endorphins. I do it to be healthy, to sweat, and keep my heart and body strong. I DO NOT want it to be a way to “make up for” my “bad eating” by working my body to the ground and making it “suffer the consequences”.

Honestly, that is how I used to think. I used to eat and immediately think about how much I need to exercise to burn those calories. Punishment for eating…

RED FLAG, MANG. Plus, it just makes me feel down and depressed. It stresses me out because food is always going to be a part of our lives (hey, did you know that human beings have to eat food in order to live?).

[Labeling foods as “good” and “bad” is only good to some degree. Yes, French fries are bad. Potato chips are bad. Fruit= good. Lean protein= good. Healthy fats= good. I used to label egg yolks, peanut butter, and bread as BAD. Now, I eat all of those every single day. I had a really weird relationship with food, back in the day.]

So… I will have to realize that social eating (which is how all three of these late night/heavy meals happened) can lead to it, but I just need to plan better or be aware of what I’m doing. Or just be a complete loner… but nobody wants that.


Try to shift your thinking of exercise from punishment for overeating.indulging to something positive (building muscle and bone density, improving your cardio, getting stronger, jumping higher, running faster, etc.)

I’ll be working on this one, too 😉


Michael and I just did the Insanity “Insane Abs” video. Unfortunately, that 33-minute video has become easy cakes… and I just don’t feel it working as much anymore. At least Michael was struggling through the whole thing and got a great core workout!

Any suggestions on a good core/ab videos?


I snacked on like 30 almonds and Addie’s homemade granola bar after the workout.

Yes, it is on top of my Bio book. I’ve been studying on-and-off. My final is tomorrow, and I can’t wait to get it over with!!!


Wish me luck with my finals!

Hope you are having a great Tuesday. Any workouts planned for today?

4 responses to “Reevaluate

  1. I completely agree – I used to follow that line of thinking but it really leads to unhealthy food/ exercise thoughts. You should read “Naturally Thin” by Bethenny Frankel – it really opened my eyes to my eating habits.

    Good luck on your finals! Can’t wait to hear how it goes. PS. That octopus looks delish.

    • I appreciate you sharing that. I was wondering if I was the only one who struggled so much with this stuff.
      Thanks for the book suggestion! I’ll definitely have to read it (I have some books I’ve been wanting to read as soon as finals are done).

  2. I used to (and still sometimes do subconsciously) think of foods as good or bad. The worst part about it for me is that once i eat too many bad foods, I feel like my exercise isn’t even worth it. I know it seems strange. But now, as I’ve started hot yoga as my primary form of exercise, I’m trying to think of exercise as not a way to lose weight but as a way to have a healthy mind and body. And yum! That 낙지덥밥 looks delicious! 😀

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